I've got an idea for my birthday. But I'm afraid of any criticism. I know my taste of songs are different and people may not be appreciative. So any solutions to that? I want to force people to listen to me just cause... come on can't you listen to me for one day a year? Its my party and I'll cry if I want to. Is it not right to force people to listen to me? I want to enjoy myself on that day. Though I'll enjoy this, part of my enjoyment comes from my guests enjoying the event as well... HMMM!! I need help planning and some outside viewpoint.
Can you guess what's it going to be? :)
Hopefully I'll have a budget for balloons.... Whoopee doo... Gotta earn more now and save for it then!
Maybe I could make everyone go to the hawker centre and eat their dinner first. Balloons are expensive! >.< Balloons seem to be first priority to me HEHEHE Pink floating balls of helium with pretty ribbons. Maybe don't invite anyone and spend my night staring as a ceiling full of balloons and playing my music to myself. Whimsical but lonely. Surrounded by people yet afraid and worried. WHICH??
Sunday, 27 March 2011
Let me be free
Go away world. With our ideals and opinions and criticism that stings. Can't you be tactful?
Go away world. I can't help comparing with everything you do.
I really dislike facebook. It strips away fundamental communications.
You don't care about me when you meet me but you spend time digging and looking if I put anything on facebook. I want the opposite. Maybe you do care but please show it. Loneliness creeps up on people.
By the way, I'm getting so irked by crude language spitefully used on me with the knowledge of me disliking it. What to do what to do... Not being able to have a calm discussion. Disliking the way each other talks. Why am I so stuck on you when what I really need is a break.
Go away world. I can't help comparing with everything you do.
I really dislike facebook. It strips away fundamental communications.
You don't care about me when you meet me but you spend time digging and looking if I put anything on facebook. I want the opposite. Maybe you do care but please show it. Loneliness creeps up on people.
By the way, I'm getting so irked by crude language spitefully used on me with the knowledge of me disliking it. What to do what to do... Not being able to have a calm discussion. Disliking the way each other talks. Why am I so stuck on you when what I really need is a break.
Wednesday, 23 March 2011
There's so many many many things I want to do. There's so many things I have to do... There's also lots of things I shouldn't do... ( like dilly dallying, stoning, being unfocused). I don't like this thing called YUUKNEE.
Things I want to do are more important then things I need to do:
Things I want to do are more important then things I need to do:
- Do well in school
- Make music
- Make Cher's card
- Meet these two awesome people
- Sculpt something
- Paint my shoes
- Train my dog
- Exercise
- Keep in closer contact with everyone
- Write a compilation of facts or emotions about Humbear bibliography? my mom insists. I did tell her I'm writing it on the blog but nooooo....
Friday, 18 March 2011
Look mummy, my wings are huge!!
Mummy swan watching over little baby cygnet. :) Isn't there one in all of us? Don't lose a youthful mind to the weathering of time.
I'm having an expensive craving :)
I love the tin can the most. Suddenly having the popcorn in a grimy paper bag is no longer sufficient and will not do at all. One day I'll claim this beauty! Isn't this a lovely photo, it shows both the cheese flavoured and caramel flavoured popcorn :) I wonder if the tin is air tight enough to keep the popcorn fresh for a few days. A gallon is hard to finish in a day or so. Doesn't this match my blog wallpaper? <3
This is a definate must-try for people who love an explosion of flavour in their mouths. Find it at City Link and Resorts world sentosa! :) *Garrett's popcorn shop*
This is a definate must-try for people who love an explosion of flavour in their mouths. Find it at City Link and Resorts world sentosa! :) *Garrett's popcorn shop*
Wednesday, 16 March 2011
Out with the old in with the new.
I've accidentally deleted my old blog. All those memorable posts with emotion and memories since I was 16 washed away with a click! Good thing I keep a physical diary. Well its not all bad to lose everything. I remember my secondary two math teacher telling us about her computer crashing and how although she lost lots of work and information and documents, there's a sort of weight lifted off her shoulders and she can start afresh again. My memory is a little cloudy so I can't remember the exact words. But the jist is there is a silver lining in every cloud :)
Wednesday, 2 March 2011
Tuesday, 1 March 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
Sometimes, in the most random of moments, something triggers a thought and my face screws up as i try not to show it, try not to let the tears fall even as I dwell in my memories. Stupid stupid stupid.
A little girl playing catch-my-finger with her grandfather, my friend's 21st birthday speech to his parents, a skinny tired old man in a shirt with specs and a laptop bag slung on his shoulder...
Come tell me to get my honours, come tell me the 80/20 rule again, to wash my hands, focus, don't dilly-dally. Come and press our heads together telling me you'll take away my headaches, I wish I could take away yours. Come tell me about you. I don't know enough about you.
A little girl playing catch-my-finger with her grandfather, my friend's 21st birthday speech to his parents, a skinny tired old man in a shirt with specs and a laptop bag slung on his shoulder...
Come tell me to get my honours, come tell me the 80/20 rule again, to wash my hands, focus, don't dilly-dally. Come and press our heads together telling me you'll take away my headaches, I wish I could take away yours. Come tell me about you. I don't know enough about you.
♥ `LilNuttz is wilting some more @ 3:37 AM
Tuesday, 22 February 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
I've just finished watching "Mona Lisa smile" starring Julia Roberts and Kristen Dunst.
For all those aimlessly wandering, not all who wander are lost.
Its a deep and thought provoking movie that gives insights into the crossing over of ladies into womanhood in the 50's. I love the 50's, with swing dancing and poodle skirts, or rock and roll and parties and everyone in dresses.
I love how studying is an active and determined decision that takes effort to go against societal ideals.
Despite how everything is revolving around "women have greater rights now, Women are equal, women are able to continue their studies" It should not be about what we should do, fulfilling societal ideals (current one being continuing further studies be successful in a job). I believe it should instead be that everyone should do what they want. On the same note, it is important for us to be educated and inspired with what life has to offer. Live life with open eyes and opinions such that what we know our choices and would lead fulfilling and enriching lives.
Be successful Be happy.
Study hard Learn.
Seize the day.
Funny thing about this phrase Carpe Diem, My previous school used it in a fashion to urge us to grasp hold of time and so to speak "chiong" "mug" study for our upcoming examinations.
For all those aimlessly wandering, not all who wander are lost.
Its a deep and thought provoking movie that gives insights into the crossing over of ladies into womanhood in the 50's. I love the 50's, with swing dancing and poodle skirts, or rock and roll and parties and everyone in dresses.
I love how studying is an active and determined decision that takes effort to go against societal ideals.
Despite how everything is revolving around "women have greater rights now, Women are equal, women are able to continue their studies" It should not be about what we should do, fulfilling societal ideals (current one being continuing further studies be successful in a job). I believe it should instead be that everyone should do what they want. On the same note, it is important for us to be educated and inspired with what life has to offer. Live life with open eyes and opinions such that what we know our choices and would lead fulfilling and enriching lives.
Seize the day.
Funny thing about this phrase Carpe Diem, My previous school used it in a fashion to urge us to grasp hold of time and so to speak "chiong" "mug" study for our upcoming examinations.
♥ `LilNuttz is wilting some more @ 11:44 PM
Tuesday, 15 February 2011
Friday, February 04, 2011
LSM 2101 Metabolism and regulation.
LSM 2102 Molecular biology
LSM 2251 Ecology and Environment
EL1101E The Nature of Language
LAK1201 Korean
LSM2288 The Diet of Urban squirrels.
Focus.
LSM 2102 Molecular biology
LSM 2251 Ecology and Environment
EL1101E The Nature of Language
LAK1201 Korean
LSM2288 The Diet of Urban squirrels.
Focus.
♥ `LilNuttz is wilting some more @ 9:47 PM
I shall be planning a SMALL hopefully VERY small birthday party. On the day itself. If you think you'll be included please keep yourself free. Small like nuclear besties cliques.
venues:
home,
void deck,
the other void deck,
CC hall,
CC dance studio.
HAHAHAHA kopitiam downstairs eat crab.
kidding thats too ex.
void decks have no electrical output. so would be weird without music.
I dislike chalets.
activity:
tea/cake. not a meal thing.
either extremely kiddy games. (everyone has to oblige to my fantastical wishes)
or not so kiddy games.
or the boredom of no games sit and look at each other
OR share our hopes and dreams. HAHAHA
or ask my wonderful friends to each give musical performances!! MUAHAHAHHA. I like this one. harp... heeheehee...
THEME:
PINK. Or maybe pink and green. or shiny... or animals...
OR NO PARTY. because we in mourning... I don't know why my mom does this to me. constantly reminding me. just when I finished typing this. BLAH!!
venues:
home,
void deck,
the other void deck,
CC hall,
CC dance studio.
HAHAHAHA kopitiam downstairs eat crab.
kidding thats too ex.
void decks have no electrical output. so would be weird without music.
I dislike chalets.
activity:
tea/cake. not a meal thing.
either extremely kiddy games. (everyone has to oblige to my fantastical wishes)
or not so kiddy games.
or the boredom of no games sit and look at each other
OR share our hopes and dreams. HAHAHA
or ask my wonderful friends to each give musical performances!! MUAHAHAHHA. I like this one. harp... heeheehee...
THEME:
PINK. Or maybe pink and green. or shiny... or animals...
OR NO PARTY. because we in mourning... I don't know why my mom does this to me. constantly reminding me. just when I finished typing this. BLAH!!
♥ `LilNuttz is wilting some more @ 7:49 PM
I miss CNY.
I do not like the idea of telling everyone we're busy doing something else and hence cannot go visiting or be visited and end up sitting at home moping.
However I also agree we shouldn't go visiting or celebrate the festive season.
Its just the lying. Maybe we should tell everyone Don't visit us, we're not visiting you. We have to stay home and mourn. However, that would make many people feel bad.
sighs.
I do not like the idea of telling everyone we're busy doing something else and hence cannot go visiting or be visited and end up sitting at home moping.
However I also agree we shouldn't go visiting or celebrate the festive season.
Its just the lying. Maybe we should tell everyone Don't visit us, we're not visiting you. We have to stay home and mourn. However, that would make many people feel bad.
sighs.
♥ `LilNuttz is wilting some more @ 5:59 PM
Saturday, 12 February 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
I don't care what sort of awesome bacteria are breeding in my oral passage and if they talk in high squeaky voices and have cute little eyes I want them gone!!! I'm not very unwell I just have waterfalls of mucus that makes bubbles on my nose in CLASS! I want it all to go away so I can sing soon. :)
So there's one thing I do not like about living in hall. Its when the time of day is perfectly fine to make noise and I'm actually making MUSIC and my neighbour texts me to ask really politely to lower my volume. Hey this is like 4 in the afternoon... frowns. I know they can hear me but I NEVER heard a sound from them so how do I know relatively how well they can hear me? For all I know it sounds like the walls are soundproof because they are that silent. And of course I'll wait till they're out before I attempt high choral songs... ET asked me if I missed choir. I answered with a definate yes much to my own surprise. :) we were toilet singing. I love the toilet. It has superb acoustics as in it reverbs and makes you sound superb too! I would love a home that is built in this way in the future. OR a toilet as large a a home HAHAHA.
I'm really hooked on Priscilla Ahn's music currently. whimsical tunes and voice and youthful dreamy lyrics.
So there's one thing I do not like about living in hall. Its when the time of day is perfectly fine to make noise and I'm actually making MUSIC and my neighbour texts me to ask really politely to lower my volume. Hey this is like 4 in the afternoon... frowns. I know they can hear me but I NEVER heard a sound from them so how do I know relatively how well they can hear me? For all I know it sounds like the walls are soundproof because they are that silent. And of course I'll wait till they're out before I attempt high choral songs... ET asked me if I missed choir. I answered with a definate yes much to my own surprise. :) we were toilet singing. I love the toilet. It has superb acoustics as in it reverbs and makes you sound superb too! I would love a home that is built in this way in the future. OR a toilet as large a a home HAHAHA.
I'm really hooked on Priscilla Ahn's music currently. whimsical tunes and voice and youthful dreamy lyrics.
♥ `LilNuttz is wilting some more @ 6:41 PM
Thursday, 10 February 2011
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
Art Artist / science scientist
/ merger? How?
something has ignited me. :) My art may not be abstract, may not be deep, may not have meaning, it may be plain, kiddy, not artistic... but somehow it still makes me feel good to be creating. Ok start small.
/ merger? How?
something has ignited me. :) My art may not be abstract, may not be deep, may not have meaning, it may be plain, kiddy, not artistic... but somehow it still makes me feel good to be creating. Ok start small.
♥ `LilNuttz is wilting some more @ 1:48 PM
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