Have just been recently reminded by JY how I have been for these 3 years?
Before Uni : "AHHHH I don't wanna go to school so scary can't make it!"
Before/just began staying in hall: "AHHHH I don't want to stay in hall any more! no friends! So lonely so difficult! Don't know who to eat with during dinner, feel outcasted!"
Subsequent years wanting to stay in hall: "AHHHH I don't want to leave hall! I miss my friends! Staying in hall is too good! I have to find a way to stay for year 3! So sad leaving hall!"
Before being KE Choir head: "AHHHH! I don't think I can handle being choir head! I can't teach can't find conductor won't do well!"
Now leaving choir: ":(:(:( Don't want to leave choir"
Now leaving Uni: "Wish I can continue"
I can't put a word to describe me or this 'syndrome' being portrayed. Anyone? :D I probably do this all the while. Eg, before performing, choosing songs (Especially this, for amplitude I asked sooo many people about o mio babbino caro. and now nessun dorma). Before applying to something. I verbally vomit all the fears and doubts and probably send people I'm talking to insane. :(
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Tuesday, 10 April 2012
Wednesday, 25 January 2012
forums!
As most of the opinions above are addressed to the number of people, I agree that this is the most important and harmful threat currently to BTNR. And yet although it is very feasible to close off the reserve this has not been done and why? Are the public not mature enough to understand that for the sake of the forest, to allow it to regenerate without harmful human interference such steps must be taken? Do we label it a nature reserve for the acknowledgement and attract "nature lovers" who can't stand their city life to immerse themselves into the "wild"?
I feel that there should be a common consensus and goal to which we work towards. Do we preserve for human benefits or for the right of the primary forest to retain its integrity? Sadly it seems that it is indeed the lack of knowledge and understanding of the public that leads us to feel that if such measures are taken, we'll face the warth of the "complain city". This is where education comes in. We don't need to teach them in the reserve the importance of staying out. In fact we can't do that.
In other countries, Nature reserves hold an idea of wilderness protected from human interference, out of bounds to humans, a daily quota set and often a entry fee that is meant to discourage users. Reserves are not parks and should not hold the same branding. I believe that even the zoo is visited by locals less that BTNR. The forest needs recuperation in order to fully regain its primary forest glory. What we see is a pale shadow of scattered trees and canopy gaps. Young seedlings trampled, fauna driving to near extinction.
I feel that there should be a common consensus and goal to which we work towards. Do we preserve for human benefits or for the right of the primary forest to retain its integrity? Sadly it seems that it is indeed the lack of knowledge and understanding of the public that leads us to feel that if such measures are taken, we'll face the warth of the "complain city". This is where education comes in. We don't need to teach them in the reserve the importance of staying out. In fact we can't do that.
In other countries, Nature reserves hold an idea of wilderness protected from human interference, out of bounds to humans, a daily quota set and often a entry fee that is meant to discourage users. Reserves are not parks and should not hold the same branding. I believe that even the zoo is visited by locals less that BTNR. The forest needs recuperation in order to fully regain its primary forest glory. What we see is a pale shadow of scattered trees and canopy gaps. Young seedlings trampled, fauna driving to near extinction.
Sunday, 15 January 2012
And all of the sudden I'm dreading Choir again. despite the wonderful wonderful medley that I so longed to sing.
AHHHH dreading school too though it has already started and its no use dragging my feet about this! Taking SSS1207 Natural Heritage, LSM3255 Ecology of Terrestrial Environment, LSM3262 Environmental Animal Physiology, LSM3272 Global Change Biology, LSM4253 Behavioral Biology, SSA2215 Biophysical Environment of Singapore. WHICH SHOULD I DROP! AHHHHH....
AHHHH dreading school too though it has already started and its no use dragging my feet about this! Taking SSS1207 Natural Heritage, LSM3255 Ecology of Terrestrial Environment, LSM3262 Environmental Animal Physiology, LSM3272 Global Change Biology, LSM4253 Behavioral Biology, SSA2215 Biophysical Environment of Singapore. WHICH SHOULD I DROP! AHHHHH....
Sunday, 25 December 2011
Merry Christmas!
Friday, 9 December 2011
NIghtmares
Would I consider them to be nightmares?
My subconscious runs wild thinking about CCA so much that I dream of the crazy carol songs and crack my sleeping mind thinking of lyrics. Being in charge of the choir is stressful! Good experience though, I'm learning learning learning.
Hark! How the bells, sweet silver bells, all seems to say throw cares away. ~
My subconscious runs wild thinking about CCA so much that I dream of the crazy carol songs and crack my sleeping mind thinking of lyrics. Being in charge of the choir is stressful! Good experience though, I'm learning learning learning.
Hark! How the bells, sweet silver bells, all seems to say throw cares away. ~
Wednesday, 23 November 2011
refresher course: how to be happy (on your own - hazily)
So its raining and its pouring and my old man well he's snoring... ~
And you see surface runoff evidently. Lots of water not seeping into the ground but becomes surface runoff means they flow into drains and go into reservoirs and we have floods and nobody says we have too many roads...
So the things I do when noone's looking.
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Saturday, 8 October 2011
taking on too much
I think I took too much more than I can handle... I should learn to put things down.. But now... Ahhhh stressing out. Good thing the boys exams and done soon. And the girls would be done before my exams. I'm gonna burn out. Shoot. Yet was so reluctant to let ma go work.
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Monday, 15 August 2011
What do I want to be remembered for?
I like this necklace I received from Sipei my cousin for my birthday. I can make any word!
Focusing on something to smile about each day, has made me forget about unhappy stuff for a while. But would you deem this as temporary happiness or would you see it as appreciating every aspect of life? Sometimes the simplest things should be cherished as much as the sophisticated stuff. (enlightenment, detachment, knowledge yada yada papaya) Don't you think?
Saturday, 9 July 2011
Thursday, 7 July 2011
The Green Crested Lizard
The green crested lizard, now this species is the one which is native to Singapore like my beloved Plantain squirrel. Its been out competed by the changeable lizard which inhabit the same habitat as well as has the same niche. This is starting to sound like a good FYP.
If only.
YOu can see the Green crested lizard is of a vibrant striking colour. This may be a reason why its being out competed so easily by its counterpart which is an olive to brown colour, blending in well with the wood and more urban landscapes now.
Maybe its too soon to say but NUS campus and clementi woods park has no green crested lizards, I shall head down to lower pierce and those reserviors around there.
If only.
There's so many good photos on flickr I wonder why the wildlife websites that are official have sch low quality ones I think people should sell photos to them. Wildlife photography is so interesting. Being a researcher sometimes its so hard to put a visual aspect into words. Nowadays the technology is so powerful! I'm sure many researchers wish to have great photos of their specimens.
YOu can see the Green crested lizard is of a vibrant striking colour. This may be a reason why its being out competed so easily by its counterpart which is an olive to brown colour, blending in well with the wood and more urban landscapes now.Maybe its too soon to say but NUS campus and clementi woods park has no green crested lizards, I shall head down to lower pierce and those reserviors around there.
Green Crested Lizard, a photo by Shawn14595 on Flickr.
Changeable Lizard
This one is a well grown male I'm guessing, the ones I try to catch are like lanky youths :)
Today is a good day
Well I do mean yesterday. 6/7/11
I woke up early, studied for my test, was a lil sleepy throughout the journey to school.
Then the day got really good when I was walking to sci fac from the src busstop at about 3pm and I spotted a changable lizard within reach! Was my second attempt at catching one of these and I feel braver! During my first attempt in KE7 I was too hesitant and thought the lizard was brave an taunting, I couldn't catch it and it ended up seriously like a scene from bollywood film around the coconut tree. (well it was a palm tree :) )
So that made me glad!
Then I went for my test, didn't have a pencil for a MCQ paper!!! AHHH but very glad my friend had an extra. Test was good!!!! I think. Yippie! What a nice lecturer with nice mix of easy and tough questions. I didn't understand the word tenuous for one of the options and had to ask :( :(. I said I didn't know the meaning of this. After he told me he apologised for using difficult words! SO SWEET!
After the test the sun was shining the day was still cool the lizards were BASKING!!! I spotted on within reach and for my THIRD attempt, I touched it! It thought I wasn't going to harm it, it probably thought I didn't see it, I nearly got it but since it was on a piece of bark and I covered its tail, it managed to slip off and fall head over heels onto the ground and scampered off. :( I'm still elated thought! I touched it!
HAHA I thought I would have a go at the next lizard basking on a tree root but just as I was about to crouch down, two squirrels my favourite plantain squirrels BURST out of the bushes and jumped at the lizard and at me as well! Awesome day yes?!
:) sighs. happy sighs.
After this I was pretty tired, squeezed with the office people all the way back to hougang for tuition at 730, napped at the void deck, had a yummy curry puff... :)
Tuition today was good as well! told her about mummies and pyramids and removing of brains! Helped her with project work of lions and pandas and bears!
Quite worn out by the time I had to make my way back. Do wish I didn't have to travel it was a pain, but my day was better as I made the bus driver's day better cause I was in the mood to greet him on and off the bus. :)
Good day!
I woke up early, studied for my test, was a lil sleepy throughout the journey to school.
Then the day got really good when I was walking to sci fac from the src busstop at about 3pm and I spotted a changable lizard within reach! Was my second attempt at catching one of these and I feel braver! During my first attempt in KE7 I was too hesitant and thought the lizard was brave an taunting, I couldn't catch it and it ended up seriously like a scene from bollywood film around the coconut tree. (well it was a palm tree :) )
So that made me glad!
Then I went for my test, didn't have a pencil for a MCQ paper!!! AHHH but very glad my friend had an extra. Test was good!!!! I think. Yippie! What a nice lecturer with nice mix of easy and tough questions. I didn't understand the word tenuous for one of the options and had to ask :( :(. I said I didn't know the meaning of this. After he told me he apologised for using difficult words! SO SWEET!
After the test the sun was shining the day was still cool the lizards were BASKING!!! I spotted on within reach and for my THIRD attempt, I touched it! It thought I wasn't going to harm it, it probably thought I didn't see it, I nearly got it but since it was on a piece of bark and I covered its tail, it managed to slip off and fall head over heels onto the ground and scampered off. :( I'm still elated thought! I touched it!
HAHA I thought I would have a go at the next lizard basking on a tree root but just as I was about to crouch down, two squirrels my favourite plantain squirrels BURST out of the bushes and jumped at the lizard and at me as well! Awesome day yes?!
:) sighs. happy sighs.
After this I was pretty tired, squeezed with the office people all the way back to hougang for tuition at 730, napped at the void deck, had a yummy curry puff... :)
Tuition today was good as well! told her about mummies and pyramids and removing of brains! Helped her with project work of lions and pandas and bears!
Quite worn out by the time I had to make my way back. Do wish I didn't have to travel it was a pain, but my day was better as I made the bus driver's day better cause I was in the mood to greet him on and off the bus. :)
Good day!
Wednesday, 29 June 2011
If I think I can, I can make it work.
Why I feel immature
I can't handle my school work, emotions, shy during wrong situations like talking to professors. (don't we point at the people talking to profs and comment on how mature and keen on learning and outspoken they are?)
I act irrationally, the way I behave with friends (my mom calls it being the fool),
I don't have deep critical thoughts of worldly issues. too busy with day to day issues and my own.
I only think of myself and people immediately surrounding me. See I hate all these I I I I I I . I should talk like ELMO!
Why Hazel feels mature suddenly
Dealing with situations mostly adults handle.
eg: funeral handling, house buying, opening/closing bank accounts, contract signing, grants of authorisation, meet lawyer, apply for stuff. cheque writing.
Hazel can't explain properly, but Hazel knows these are like practical life stuff that everyone would handle at some point of time. But it makes Hazel feel old doing all these now. On the other hand Hazel feels so prepared for anything that will come her way.
Humbear was funny. He had a few jokes up his sleeve.
There was the pulling his arm out of his sleeve one,
Calling me donkey and dumbo.
Putting his forehead against mine and taking my headaches from me. Then going ARGH ARGH!! so pain! :)
When I ask, "where's ma?" He'll rummage in his pocket and take his fist out and say "Nah here in my pocket"
Catching me unfocused while supposed to do work.
Secretly buying me colour pens when I was younger, keeping those I bought secret from ma too.
I realised its not really the funny stuff anymore. Doesn't seem funny.
I used to be TERRIFIED maybe still am, constantly dreading when my parents would you know... die. does everyone think about it? tell me hor. :)
Like when I was 7. (I did alot of pondering during that age. Starting thinking about why was I born and what is living and dying and do we have souls, and purposes and death. Also did alot of imagining as well hence quite cuckoo in my head) Oh yes so when I was around that age, would wake up in the night and check if my parents were BREATHING! terrifying! wait till they snore or put my finger there.
Now I still do, occasionally, when my mind runs wild. Hmmm. Does it count as mentally preparing myself if I imagine it coming? Sometimes I do too. I feel very bad like it may make it come faster! But my imaginations runs wild and I get to the point where I react like its real. cry of course. Mostly before falling asleep when the mind is like in the drifty portion between thoughts and dreams like the frothy bits of waves as it rolls against the sand. When my mom is most silent and I'm scared that she may turn cold and be not-breathe. Snoring is good.
Blogs have different purposes ya. This one's for sharing my emotions and thoughts. Actually felt shy and thought I'm weird people would think I'm weird. But I realised NOWADAYS people who do come see aren't those mean kaypo comparing mean ones. But the ones who want to know cause they care. Thanks. :) Anyway though I know you're there for me, its hard to SAY all these. Like really lar even my mom! What if I told her all that! I think she'll smack me for imagining her .... Ooh and jy. especially him. too emotional. stuff that cannot be solved.
Today:
I asked my mom to cook oxtail stew, saying so long haven't eaten that. She said, "Humbear's not here already"
She keeps contemplating if she should work. I stubbornly think she doesn't need to. I feel like Humbear, he doesn't think she needs to as well. I think I can. I smile and wave her off.
Alot of times I get demoralised and scared and the thoughts in my head goes as such eg: "I can't be choir head what if.... etc... I can't study and stay hall at the same time... I can't tuition as much... I can. If I think I can I can sure make it happen." Then I get happily surprised by my own change of thoughts its like someone else in there.
I can't handle my school work, emotions, shy during wrong situations like talking to professors. (don't we point at the people talking to profs and comment on how mature and keen on learning and outspoken they are?)
I act irrationally, the way I behave with friends (my mom calls it being the fool),
I don't have deep critical thoughts of worldly issues. too busy with day to day issues and my own.
I only think of myself and people immediately surrounding me. See I hate all these I I I I I I . I should talk like ELMO!
Why Hazel feels mature suddenly
Dealing with situations mostly adults handle.
eg: funeral handling, house buying, opening/closing bank accounts, contract signing, grants of authorisation, meet lawyer, apply for stuff. cheque writing.
Hazel can't explain properly, but Hazel knows these are like practical life stuff that everyone would handle at some point of time. But it makes Hazel feel old doing all these now. On the other hand Hazel feels so prepared for anything that will come her way.
Humbear was funny. He had a few jokes up his sleeve.
There was the pulling his arm out of his sleeve one,
Calling me donkey and dumbo.
Putting his forehead against mine and taking my headaches from me. Then going ARGH ARGH!! so pain! :)
When I ask, "where's ma?" He'll rummage in his pocket and take his fist out and say "Nah here in my pocket"
Catching me unfocused while supposed to do work.
Secretly buying me colour pens when I was younger, keeping those I bought secret from ma too.
I realised its not really the funny stuff anymore. Doesn't seem funny.
I used to be TERRIFIED maybe still am, constantly dreading when my parents would you know... die. does everyone think about it? tell me hor. :)
Like when I was 7. (I did alot of pondering during that age. Starting thinking about why was I born and what is living and dying and do we have souls, and purposes and death. Also did alot of imagining as well hence quite cuckoo in my head) Oh yes so when I was around that age, would wake up in the night and check if my parents were BREATHING! terrifying! wait till they snore or put my finger there.
Now I still do, occasionally, when my mind runs wild. Hmmm. Does it count as mentally preparing myself if I imagine it coming? Sometimes I do too. I feel very bad like it may make it come faster! But my imaginations runs wild and I get to the point where I react like its real. cry of course. Mostly before falling asleep when the mind is like in the drifty portion between thoughts and dreams like the frothy bits of waves as it rolls against the sand. When my mom is most silent and I'm scared that she may turn cold and be not-breathe. Snoring is good.
Blogs have different purposes ya. This one's for sharing my emotions and thoughts. Actually felt shy and thought I'm weird people would think I'm weird. But I realised NOWADAYS people who do come see aren't those mean kaypo comparing mean ones. But the ones who want to know cause they care. Thanks. :) Anyway though I know you're there for me, its hard to SAY all these. Like really lar even my mom! What if I told her all that! I think she'll smack me for imagining her .... Ooh and jy. especially him. too emotional. stuff that cannot be solved.
Today:
I asked my mom to cook oxtail stew, saying so long haven't eaten that. She said, "Humbear's not here already"
She keeps contemplating if she should work. I stubbornly think she doesn't need to. I feel like Humbear, he doesn't think she needs to as well. I think I can. I smile and wave her off.
Alot of times I get demoralised and scared and the thoughts in my head goes as such eg: "I can't be choir head what if.... etc... I can't study and stay hall at the same time... I can't tuition as much... I can. If I think I can I can sure make it happen." Then I get happily surprised by my own change of thoughts its like someone else in there.
Saturday, 11 June 2011
Continuation
I find a photo blog post terribly unfulfilling! I am filled with an intense urge to elaborate! Sighs, 21 on the 21st of May. :) I'm just glad the people I'm close to came by and spent some time with me. I wanted to go visit Humbear but noooooo superstition has prevented me...
Suddenly while looking for my 20th birthday family photo I've an intense longing.
This is Humbear after I was begging him to do this for me on webcam one of our thousands of video conversations during the 5 year stint in China. I also missed him a whole lot during that time cause I knew how hard it was on him as well but there was little other options. How the winters were long and lonely and how I grew tired of trying to communicate with what was slow internet. How the summers were hot and had huge mosquitoes, how his neighbours were strange and cranky. I'm so sorry for ever losing interest in communicating. It was so tough. I used to see an illusion of him out of the corner of my eye around the house, imagine him calling me or making me a cup of milo or tucking me in. One thing I'm glad of is that as least he lost his previous job and came home to us for 4 years before leaving for good. My heart aches. Like a cramp. Like a foot cramp that makes you double up except that its in my chest and I can't stretch it and I can only hold myself.
I dislike people complaining about what I think of as minor losses, but I tell myself not to think this way as perhaps to them their hamsters or little birdies are very important to them as well. Also dislike people saying "fml" for any reason at all. Sighs. I'm afraid of being influenced, by many things, vulgarities, morales, opinions. Once I was suddenly in a burst of hot temper after being honked by a car who had the right of way I was either going to curse or flick my middle finger. I don't know what got over me. See, I didn't even want to do that but... perhaps influenced by other people's way of expressing anger has got to me. I was very astonished with myself.
Okay back to the main thing, 21st birthday, people spending time together, OH Huiting... I don't know what does this girl has but she has a hold over me. Every little thing she does can affect me. HAH she ignores me, she doesn't reply or call, she's late for my party, she wasn't there to help out. whew I was close to tears of either anger or longing. there's a photo of that.
Don't know why I'm bound to her like migratory routes to birds. She's got me wound round her finger hahaha.
By the way, the egg cup with chicken feet is so not easy, what an irony, its not chicken feet at all. The clay was like honey, too soft and the chicken can't stand and the sticks was gettting out and holes were forming! What a nightmare. Hah. too bad I didn't have space for the whole name. I'm sure it would have be liked more in that way. I love making things for people but don't have the time and I always end up doing it last minute HOHOHO...
Finally I'm out of things to say. Oh no, look at that photo of "jamming" in the void deck. Was with bosty and oh my gosh am I tone deaf? I cannot harmonise at all HAHAHA its been 3 "sessions" of trying and I keep singing an octave above or spend the whole song gliding up and down the notes. I can't be the next choir head! What a big fib I must have told hall master... but I miss hall, I miss the Common hall especially, I like singing alone there it makes me sound good muahhahha... echoy... my secret hide out. OKAY i'm a big mouth its not a secret anymore.
To stay or not. After being promoted to sole breadwinner, I'm pretty stressed. I try and try to tell my mom its okay and go ahead with all the renovations but she just ignores me and that i'm working. Though its not much it can get more or maybe not if i'm staying in hall... but I'll maintain it and it is at least sufficient to cover hall expenses and food for the both of us. SIGHS! I've made a decision to base my own on another persons. heh cheat. well, I'll find a balance, won't take too many students though I really enjoy teaching them. :) One day soon in the new house I'm converting one of the rooms to a tuition/study one. whoopeedoo....
Finally I'm out of words.
Suddenly while looking for my 20th birthday family photo I've an intense longing.
I dislike people complaining about what I think of as minor losses, but I tell myself not to think this way as perhaps to them their hamsters or little birdies are very important to them as well. Also dislike people saying "fml" for any reason at all. Sighs. I'm afraid of being influenced, by many things, vulgarities, morales, opinions. Once I was suddenly in a burst of hot temper after being honked by a car who had the right of way I was either going to curse or flick my middle finger. I don't know what got over me. See, I didn't even want to do that but... perhaps influenced by other people's way of expressing anger has got to me. I was very astonished with myself.
Okay back to the main thing, 21st birthday, people spending time together, OH Huiting... I don't know what does this girl has but she has a hold over me. Every little thing she does can affect me. HAH she ignores me, she doesn't reply or call, she's late for my party, she wasn't there to help out. whew I was close to tears of either anger or longing. there's a photo of that.
By the way, the egg cup with chicken feet is so not easy, what an irony, its not chicken feet at all. The clay was like honey, too soft and the chicken can't stand and the sticks was gettting out and holes were forming! What a nightmare. Hah. too bad I didn't have space for the whole name. I'm sure it would have be liked more in that way. I love making things for people but don't have the time and I always end up doing it last minute HOHOHO...
Finally I'm out of things to say. Oh no, look at that photo of "jamming" in the void deck. Was with bosty and oh my gosh am I tone deaf? I cannot harmonise at all HAHAHA its been 3 "sessions" of trying and I keep singing an octave above or spend the whole song gliding up and down the notes. I can't be the next choir head! What a big fib I must have told hall master... but I miss hall, I miss the Common hall especially, I like singing alone there it makes me sound good muahhahha... echoy... my secret hide out. OKAY i'm a big mouth its not a secret anymore.
To stay or not. After being promoted to sole breadwinner, I'm pretty stressed. I try and try to tell my mom its okay and go ahead with all the renovations but she just ignores me and that i'm working. Though its not much it can get more or maybe not if i'm staying in hall... but I'll maintain it and it is at least sufficient to cover hall expenses and food for the both of us. SIGHS! I've made a decision to base my own on another persons. heh cheat. well, I'll find a balance, won't take too many students though I really enjoy teaching them. :) One day soon in the new house I'm converting one of the rooms to a tuition/study one. whoopeedoo....
Finally I'm out of words.
I'm 21 by the way...
Thank you everyone. but even without these presents I feel so loved!
ukulele from huiting! after making me so upset i nearly cried! stupid stupid girl. the only one who can keep hurting me and i still go running back.
sweet little Cleo getting so smart.
Boey Pua Tor and Boey Kia Si left to right.
Harmonica and harmonica... holder?
Playing in the void deck...
And here's my own little audience! :) was pretty shy and embarrassed when they started watching.
something new!!! who is it for??
End of my once in a blue moon photo post. :)
Thursday, 9 June 2011
Cambodia!!!
Let see, Cambodia.... The food is different from chinese, indian, malay, western, japanese... etc... I would call it Khmer/Vietnamese. Cause I know that Vietnamese food is very similar. There's so much lime I love it! porridge with lime, soup with lime, drinks with lime, pepper with lime, fish with unripe mango, salad with mango, I love the incorporation of fruits into the dishes. Gives the meats a very fresh tangy taste. I love palm tree fruit, palm tree sugar, palm tree juice (fermented). This palm tree fruit has a texture like nata de coco and atap seed combined. There's a delicacy which consists of a boiled fertilised duck egg with a young duckling inside, that I couldn't eat because I could not work out how to swallow and digest the beak and legs and feathers! But the sauce provided was nice.
The people of Cambodia that I've met are all so friendly, the children whom we taught started to grow on me and I wept torrents last year when we left Kampung spur. This year the class I taught got my handphone number and called me a few times before I left cambodia. I didn't get a chance to communicate across that overseas they can no longer call me :( I just hope they retain some motivation or inspiration. I know that the sustainability of the knowledge we transferred would last only a week or so but I hope the impact and impression we have may spur their future endeavours....
Angkor WATTTTTTT!!!! I think there's people who spend a week or so exploring each temple. Though I don't have the patience or attention span to do that I would like to spend more time there, perhaps with breaks in between else I zone out when the guide is talking. I think this happens quite often, I remember in Italy on a JC trip I also zone out after my brain is so saturated with the history of the places and statues and what nots.
I feel that I'm familiar with my way around Siem Reap especially because its a small city and most of the activity takes place in a small area of 4 or 5 roads. Also its a major tourist hub, the tuk-tuk drivers speak english, shop keepers speak english, the touristy areas are within driving distance, the markets walking distance, the motel is cheap and I remember the way back...
One day I'll go back again. Probably no longer with the OCIP team of course. It was a good run.
Tuesday, 19 April 2011
Graduation Night
11 April 2011 was a very good day indeed.
I completed one presentation for UROPS, it went perfectly and was very enjoyable.
Also, I finally plucked up the courage to sing without the comforts of 50 other voices in chorus.
I performed for KEVII's Graduation Night. :) Although it was not my turn to graduate, I think it is my last year in KEVII and I really wanted to show my gratitude and love for this hall, this family, this second home of mine for 2 years.
Dream- Priscilla Ahn and Time to Say Goodbye- Andrea Bocelli.
There's only one thing I regretted that night. I regret how I only felt so welcomed so befriended so happy with hall during the final semester here. Maybe its me, maybe its the circumstances no-one can do anything about, maybe its just the way things were. Despite that, it leaves me yearning for more, and also cherishing the moments passed.
Thank you King Edward VII Hall. Some say its the people, the friends that make the hall stay memorable. That of course is true to a large extent, but I feel that somehow there seems to be a spirit of KEVII hall that brings so many of us together, that shelters us and nurtures us in this period of which we are finally on the verge, on the edge of the cliff, on the brink of taking wing.
Though many of us may continue to cling on to the nest, yearning for more time in the comforts of the arms of KEVII, we have our time, each different. The different circumstances, choices, actions has led to this, sometimes trying would be in vain. Lets boldly take flight, a running leap off the cliff. How else to learn to fly after you've gained the theory? I hope I can hold on to this theory when it comes to the big graduation :)
I completed one presentation for UROPS, it went perfectly and was very enjoyable.
Also, I finally plucked up the courage to sing without the comforts of 50 other voices in chorus.
I performed for KEVII's Graduation Night. :) Although it was not my turn to graduate, I think it is my last year in KEVII and I really wanted to show my gratitude and love for this hall, this family, this second home of mine for 2 years.
Dream- Priscilla Ahn and Time to Say Goodbye- Andrea Bocelli.
There's only one thing I regretted that night. I regret how I only felt so welcomed so befriended so happy with hall during the final semester here. Maybe its me, maybe its the circumstances no-one can do anything about, maybe its just the way things were. Despite that, it leaves me yearning for more, and also cherishing the moments passed.
Thank you King Edward VII Hall. Some say its the people, the friends that make the hall stay memorable. That of course is true to a large extent, but I feel that somehow there seems to be a spirit of KEVII hall that brings so many of us together, that shelters us and nurtures us in this period of which we are finally on the verge, on the edge of the cliff, on the brink of taking wing.
I didn't study
What to do... I don't want to calculate if its even possible to pull up the grade with the final paper.
Tuesday, 5 April 2011
Stressed
I feel so stressed I start skipping school. I think that if I were to sit through another lecture and feel that saturation and the lecturer's words flying past me I'll explode. Not to mention feeling all hopeless beside my friends. They are so awesome and helpful but they wouldn't be able to help on the spot when I'm not taking a single information in and getting all restless and stressed.
Two more weeks...
Two more weeks...
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